A New Home and an End to Tech School

Well a lot has happened and very quick in that fact.
This is the last entry having to do with Tech School.. Silence.. And Scene.
I really didn't have Internet back at Sheppard and was walking around grabbing it at two spots so I really didn't update in my final dates because I didn't really care to walk so far just to update.. your lose, my lose. Anyway I got my orders last week and jail broke that bitch forever. Well I will have to go back for upgrade training some day but that's not for a bit. And I finally made it to my new duty station which is Nellis AFB in Vegas.
Could you as for a better end result in all of this mess and shit. Get in trouble for alcohol and then they send you to Sin City. I say I came out on top. haha. Well I have almost been here for a week and still trying to get used to everything and in process this base. Most of which will happen next week as I attend briefings all next week. So much fun.. Sure!
I'm really happy to be out of the training envoirment I finally feel like I have a life again. I'll explain why

My first weekend in Vegas
Friday. Alicia picked me up and took me shopping. I can't believe that I now live in the same city as this girl. Jues. We went to a local import shop were she dropped some cash. And I just stood, sat, and laughed it was like I was watching myself or something with all the wants and shit. Then she took me to Walmart to get shit I needed for my room. Thank god she went because instead of my ass making like a bunch of trips she managed to pretty get me out of there with that one. All I need now is a TV and Internet, and my Xbox. But got back on base and she helped me to my room. Stayed and left but yeah.
No checking in and shit. So much better
Sat and Sunday the Morales were in town. Saw Ms. Morales and Christy for the first time this year. Of corse Mr. Morales and Chris to haha. But yeah they took me out to Primm for the those two days for Christy's birthday. Happy Birthday by the way. Great to see your face when you dad got you with song and cake. Thank you Morales's for the fun time, alcohol, and gambling experience. Probably won't be gambling all that much here. To pricey for nothing back.. haha.
But yeah what a way to enter into Vegas and life.
No questions asked just showed up on Monday and handled my business as it should be.

There should be some good updates now that I'm in a city that doesn't sleep and shit. Once I get my car and some other shit here I'll be sure to be takin pictures and updating alot more.
Should be fun as hell living here.

Ugh Week.. Happy 4th.. Sure

Well what a week this has been and shit I'm only at the mid point. If anything this week really just hits an all time low in my mind. NO I didn't get in trouble. So at least I guess I have one thing to be happy about. But seriously when the fuck did my life become about praying not to be in trouble, I feel like I'm a 12 year old hiding there report card from there parents so they don't have there ass beat. Anyways what really is getting me down is that I signed, sadly, another 30 day admin hold on Tuesday. The reason why that is so depressing is that nothing happend the last time that I was on this shit. So what is to make me believe that anything will get done this time besides me sitting here for another 30 days.
I'm getting tired of all the new kids looking at me like I'm some kind of bad person because I'm here after I graduated tech school. I'm tired of being called that guy for a situation that everyone hears threw the grape vine then comes to me to ask if its true like I really had some balls while doing it and thought it would be cool to do. I mean there are times that I really feel like walking into whom ever office I need to step into and tell them FUCK THIS I'm out. Because I didn't come into this bitch to play games and be rung around like a little kid. Fuck that I came here as a last resort to jump start my life and get something "GOOD" going for me. Getting out of my situation so that I could go back to school, learn a skill at the same time, and get some unique life experience's. Not be treated like I'm a kid.
Anyone who really knows me knows I have a problem with people telling me what to do or even sugjesting what to do. I have to much pride to ask for help. Probably while I'm single and only have 5 ride or die friends in my life.
Enough of this rant. Just know I hate this week..
I'm going to hate this weekend because I can't do anything, because I'm not allowed to act my age.. Ah shit!

Talk about a Fuckin Week

Talk about a FUCKIN WEEK.
Well my admin hold is officially over and well now it seems I just play another game of waiting to see what is going on with me but this time there is no count down. My roommate is gone now. Pretty weird being in a room by myself again havn't had that in over 6 months. Now I wish I really had some type of entertainment in the room Amazing how boring your room can be when you have nothing but 4 white walls surrounding you. Kinda saddin but at the same time. I would rather live alone anyways. Enjoy the cold and the dark to much. Never said anything but leaving the bathroom light on at night. Damn that was anoying.. Haha.
Oh and fuck friday especially man.. I got chewed out by like 5 MTL's (Military Training Leaders) felt like I was being chewed out by TI for a moment. Then I was like I have a fuckin Civil Engeneering badge on my chest you'll fuckin need my ass when you need something done. I mean these MTL's went so far to use basic mentality type things on me. Don't get me wrong I listened to and was like shit, I fuckin hate this but really all it did was anger me more about this place ans choice. There extensivness was even to say that there is a express lane out of 11 days. Which a part of this day almost made me think that I want to take it. I'm sick of not knowing anything and being treated like a little kid. I'm fuckin 24, I did my school as far as the AF is considered. Let me go back to school and get my degree already.
Some day's you just feel like you should have got a job a Tmobile and kept up with the DJing at least I would be livin pour and livin rather then livin this bullshit and still pour.

Another Week Bites the Dust

Had to include this picture kinda made me laugh.. people think us people from LA are savages or something because we riot..
I mean shit 2pac said it best.
"Only in Cali where we riot not rally to live and die
In L.A!"


So another week has gone by and nothing yet..
Good news is that the admin hold is up on Thursday. Thus saying I'm not expecting anything to happen till that date passes. So part of me is like fuck it you have been here this long what is another week of waiting for something to happen. Especially seeing that they have to make me sign another paper about something because they have no reason to keep me here past then. As if I'm going to sign something without a explanation after this shit.
Anyways I think that sums up the week.
I mean shit all I do is pretend to wash things.. I have about a nap a day and I watch TV in one of the day rooms.. That and walk around the base and go to the library to get online every once in a while.

Next thing on the list is what I have been reading and dieing to say.

What the fuck is up with the people who work at the cafeteria's. I mean shit all the black women look like motha fuckin peacocks with there random ass colored spotted hair. Like there bangs will be fuckin red or there ends are blond, purple, blue.. What the fuck. I will have to take pictures this up and coming week for the entertainment value for this thing. Also how the AF (Air Force) has all these standards and shit on to get into the base and everything and I swear they hire anyone to work at this place.. The pictures will come and blow your mind.. haha

Another thing is that I will be hatin alot more on this thing.. I need to take a picture of this riced out sol. Didn't get around to it today. But should have it soon.
Stay tuned this shits about to get real.

Phase 1 Again

Lets just start this off by saying..
Another day has gone by more names have come and more names have gone. Other got there orders and others got in trouble. Personally I seem to be on every negative of every aspect of this ratio. Losing my key yet again and getting phased back yet again. And at the same time not getting my orders. It sucks when all you look forward to in the day is a little 5 minute segment when they hand out the orders that they picked up the day before.
I'm so sick of this place. I mean I'm personally seeing why people of my age group and rank commit suicide in the Air Force. No body take this as I'm going to do it. Because I have no plans of doing that at all! Shit all I need is 5 minutes with my little girl (my sol) and I'll be on cloud nine again. What I mean by this is when you this age personally I feel like I'm old enough even threw my faults and mishaps for people to speak to me like a grown up person and not talk down to me just because I'm what just another airman in training. I mean what does that show me besides shit let me be a dick when I get rank because what, I can? Now that just seems wrong because once you get rank the Air Force is supposed to feel more and more like yours because your aging in it and ushering in the younger generation.. So why the fuck once they get to Tech School are so many NCOs fuckin dick and assholes. Then they come and say the operational Air Force is nothing like this and people are more relaxed. Well shit I'm getting paid right? I'm working right? What makes this not part of the operational Air Force?
More then anything I just want a break from all the bullshit that is "TRAINING" situations I'm happy that I'm so close to the end but now that I am I'm more iritated because I'm waiting on one simple thing to be leaving.
Send me back to Cali

Not every Tunnel is that light

During school this place wasn't bad but now that I'm done with school and the I'm at the tunnel and supposed to be gone from this place and I'm stuck here I feel like I'm standing at the end of this tunnedl and there is nothing but darkness around me in all aspects.
I feel like demons are teasing me by saying one thing thing then slashing my back with the real idea or thing that is goin on. Here I thought that I was in training and going to get credit for it. Well because I'm not the right skill level I'm just there as person to fill space, so to speak. People tell me that what I would have my orders in a week or so. WELL IT'S BEEN A FUCKIN WEEK. Shit they havn't even passed out any orders this whole week, because the MTL that does that was on leave this whole week. Yet another slash. Another thing is people treating me like I'm 18 and shit. I know that most people here are young but common anyone who looks me in the face to talk to me can tell that I'm older then the average person here. So don't treat me like that. I have always hated when people have told me what to do outside of parents and work type thing.
I remember in Fight Club WTF was his name when he first met Tyler Durden on the plane talking about single serving friends. I feel thats all I'm around right now and thats what the Air Force is built upon. People not really becoming more then that because people are always moving around. No wonder everyone gets married quick it's the oonly stable friendship that you could have for more then just 2 years..
Riht now as it stands I miss my old life.
My car, my friends, my family.
and have been finding my peace in my music.

Well talk about relief for the first time in a long time. It had 5 months since the last time that I had a normal day as a “civilian,” considering things now, and man did it feel good to be part of just the mass again.
I probably have not laughed that hard like I did over this weekend since being back at home with my close friends and that’s for sure. Some of the funniest moment I had ever been apart of a mix of Country East with City West. Quote of the weekend
“Twitter that bitch!”
So over used and out played. But I laughed so hard every time the phrased was used. Because I did twitter some of the stuff we did and viewed. I mean if I had twittered everything I would have had a page of shit. Friday, staying in Wichita Falls we traveled the less traveled path by going to the bars that no Airman would be at. Starting at Montana were we saw the One Armed Pirate Lady, who had a sock over her stub, and was just nasty as hell. Then next door to Lucky noice looking but there was no one there. To Beer Thirty, one word WOW, do they really get into there karaoke. Lastly was Outskirts were we (Joe Wimmer, John Wimmer, and me) looking for the gay club Cloud 9 just trying to top the weird shit we had already scene that night. Well we didn’t top the one armed lady but we met these two chicks, dumb as fuck and slow, but they gave us good entertainment for the rest of the night at IHOP. After IHOP John and I went back to the base as Joe went to his axe murdering, drug pushing hotel. Fucking shit brown wall with red classic sign of horrible things to come.
Sure enough when we ran into Joe in the morning he had a story to tell about the hotel.

This is a picture of a piece from the shower. He went on to tell us about how he felt like he was going to die all night and his BWM was going to get robbed. Mainly his thing was how dirty he felt on the bed because the sheet alone had 5 cigarette burns in it, and the top cover looked like something out of a porno. Saturday couldn’t have started off any better. When we got to Joe’s apartment we were all ready to crash finally seeing how we all got like no sleep the night before. Fast forward time to the Ranger’s game. My personal highlight was seeing Andruw Jones go 0-5

Not the actual game shot but you get the idea. Same result as always.. K

Jo’s highlight was the people around him. To his right as he said the older butch lady group, one bitch had flames rings on both arms on her biceps one being red and the other blue. In front an Asian family looked like they were fresh off the boat. Also in front was this guy with the damn cheesiest smile we had ever seen in our lives shit was huge. John and Me to the left. And lastly behind were these fat older white ladies. Perfect seats. Then to Denny’s were we all laughed like we were high as hell. You should have seen the staff and walked in there and you would have been dieing as well. Some black dude with the front of his head shaved with a short Afro in the back. WTF. These Muslim looking white and Asian people came in weird. Lastly the fat ass that sat behind us that made Joe seriously laugh soda threw his nose onto his pancakes, absolutely perfect. After the game tour of downtown Dallas and damn there is some good looking nightlife will defiantly come back and check that shit out.
Sunday shoot. John slept all day.
Thank you Joe Wimmer for the hospitality and overall fun time. I will defiantly have to come back to Dallas. I don’t think I have ever seen that many blondes in once place, one city, one club for even that note. Jesus they come like a school of fuckin fish. Oh and Dallas soccer mom’s WOW.

Because of you I will Twitter more then ever. But not enough to get robbed I promise!
“Twittered that Biatch!”
www.twitter.com/Muella

Defered...

Another lesson in life seems to be upon me once again.. Here I thought everything was taken care of with my incident but yet I'm slapped in the face like then 24 hours before departing home.
So much for Japan as a first base.
I'm not on a Admin hold and waiting for my diversion paperwork to go threw so that I can get new state side orders. MTL's and other people told me that I should be here for another week or two. I'm hoping the sooner the later so that I can move on from tech school. Seeing how that I'm now back on details and cleaning the squadrent on a daily bases. Its sad to see the new kids come in and here I am with my AFC badge on cleaning along side of them because I can't leave. When they say the quickest way out of here is to stay out of trouble they were right. Seeing how the other half of my class is at home with there families in NY.
My mind is racing now of all the new posibilities because I have already looked at all the downs and had a drink to go with the old thoughts of fun. So now it's all just wonder of were I'm going to be. Like trying to find Carmen San Diego.. haha.
Keep yall posted on were I end up.

Countdowns

Comin down to a week left before my training session for the moment is over.. A stint of 14 days at home shall follow and then off to Japan. One thing about Tech School and Basic is the feeling of that movie Ground Hog's day were Bill Murray woke up everyday just to find himself on the same day that he went to sleep in.. He didn't notice it at first but at the end of the movie he began to notice that he was trapped in the same day. Seems to e the same for me as well. Except this time I have a true dte when I escape the rituals known as training and head off.
So much I wanna do and so little time to do it. People that I want to see and visit. So many things to say before I leave.
Now that I'm getting into this blogspot thing with the proper internet when I get home and my phone this should become a very colorful and insitful blog.
8 day's FTHMFW!

Thoughts...

I have to get into a better habbit with this..
AF update. Grad date should be set in stone now. May 26th. With that comes excitement about finally being able to go home for a little bit, even though it has really only been what 4 and 1/2 months, and a lot of worry about getting everything done to live in a whole different country. Another thing that bugs me out is change, I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons the other day, and I remember him talking about change, watching him change, and his surroundings changing.
Speaking of old people my grandfather is moving into an asisted living. Sadding to me clearly my favorite grandparent of them all. Greatfully he is the last living and I don't see him goin down any time soon. I see alot of myself in him and I see my life unfolding like his sometimes. It scares me but at the same time I look at all the things that he has done and I'm happy. I dono what to think about my mothers stance on the issue. She sent out an email about it and she really focused the email more about how she feels like she is putting him into a kindergarden facility how they display there paintings and people sit there and have to be told not to do that or not to touch, look here, don't, stop.
I would think more she is just fearing of the alsimers, which also fears me as well even at this young age. (I remember when I got the card in basic, just to see his handwriting brought a tear. I look at it every night) Another thing of sadness was listening to this comedians story upon drinking and his DUI's. Don't get me wrong there was comedy but you know when they do that serious part in the middle or near the end. Well it was about alcohol and it made me think. He had these four rules for you to think about if you had a problem or not
1. Drinking during the work week.
2. Saying you'll just have one and go home and it turning into an all night thing
3. Blacking Out
4. Setting periods of time off and just hitting it hard again. Making you think that your in control..
It's funny when he started saying those rules and I thought of myself I really fell into all of them because I have done all of those thing so many times. Thats when I knew it was actually good that I was in a alcohol program to address some issues so that I can get back in control of it. Do I think I'm there yet. NO. But at least I'm identifying problem
Lastly.

Weekly Shitzu

Another week down and soon to be out of this place...
Payday on Friday.. Thank god for that.. Even though I barely spend any money here.. But damn it feels good finally being able to save. Like actually putting money into a savings account regularly type shit..
Anyways.
Started the ADEPT program hopefully I can finish here and not have it drag with me to Japan or shit is gonna get complicated and shit with my personal life. Pretty dumb if you ask me the people there really don't take it serious I wouldn't either if I was there age. I mean shit it's takin me all the way to 24 to even think that I have a problem with drinking. But thats another rant probably for thursday after the second meeting and shit.
Vegas Invation for the Del Sol's is going on and I'm upset that I'm missing that I think the best thing that came of it so far is that I got Shanes number back thank you Alicia for that one and getting him to get in contact with me.. Everyone is just lucky I didn't get a chance to unleash the K yet.
Lastly I'm gonna end with an update on school.. I have never had a teacher tell me that we need to slow down the learning because we are ahead of schedule.. Which I don't mind watching movies and getting paid to do it. But you have to sides that I want to leave and get back home to Cali sooner then later but I want to take our time and finish on time so that I can see Steff's graduation and plan thing out to see other people and do other things..
P.S. No new pic's probably tomarrow morning sunrises..

3 weeks and finally back up to Phase 2 and shit and at least I know I'll make it threw this weekend without a problem of getting in trouble..
Been spending alot more time in my room if anything I have become a social quiet person because of the damn incedent..
Dono how it's blessing yet and I really dono all my punishment yet either..
One thing it has givin me some time to walk around at night and take pictures...
So if anything I finding another out lit for me to do instead of just always drinking. and for sure it's alot cheaper then drinking all the time.
Here are some of my pic's
No photo shopping done thats the next step I need to start learning.